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Silent Sorority review

Where Did Eight Years Go, Silent Sorority?

Posted on April 18, 2017April 19, 2017 by Pamela Tsigdinos

When the Silent Sorority galley arrived in 2009 my pulse quickened. I thumbed through the pages and out jumped the grittiest parts of my life.  I sat down at the keyboard to write my first and only birth announcement.

Five years of blinking cursors and early morning draft rewrites culminated in Silent Sorority: A (Barren) Woman Gets Busy, Angry, Lost and Found — the first memoir on infertility not authored by a mother.

All the infertility memoirs and profiles I’d ever come across had one thing in common: the stories ended with the successful delivery of a baby. birth-announcementNot one of them looked or sounded like me.

Silent Sorority is Born

Much as I wanted to bury my trauma-inducing infertility experience and erase it from my memory, I found I couldn’t. My sole writing motivation – what drove me to pour my story on to these pages – was broadening the infertility narrative. Truth telling about what happens when conception and pregnancy prove elusive. I knew I could not be the only woman who had devoted years to deciphering an infertility mystery only to come away without the successful pregnancy we (not just me but many women) had worked so painstakingly hard to achieve. It was time “our” story was told.

Silent SororityOh the places we’ve been and the hearts touched along the way. I had two audiences in mind: 1) women who felt disenfranchised by the disproportionate share of voice given to mothers; and 2) the immediate social circle – family and friends who were unaware of the physical, emotional, and societal challenges of those who once dreamed about conceiving and delivering a child. Catharsis from reliving and reflecting on my own nightmarish experience was purely a bonus.

See also  Life After Infertility: One Decade, Many Thoughts

When readers reach out my soul soars and my heart smiles. I conjured you all into my dark space nearly a decade ago. I heard you cheering me: Write, write, write — bring our collective experience to life.

Silent Sorority author
Pamela Jeanne eight years later

Even today, reviews and emails like this one from MJKunk bring tears to my eyes:

Finally–validation for what I have been feeling during my 15-year struggle with infertility!! I truly thought I must be the only one dealing with this shame, anger, and yes, even self-pity. I knew other women like myself must exist, but in the small community where I live the only couples without children that I know of, are very vocal in that they chose that life–it wasn’t chosen for them, as in my case. My husband and I tried every way possible to have children–from IVF to adoption–and in all cases it ended in failure. The pain has been overwhelming and at age 51 I am still trying to pull myself out of this quicksand.

Our world is so family oriented that you can’t even turn on the television without being reminded that you don’t quite fit in. When you have no children–or nieces & nephews–there is a giant void in your life that nothing can fill. After reading this book I realized that I wasn’t the only one to feel such deep sorrow, anger, confusion, and sometimes, even resentment–sorry, but it is easy to get lost in your troubles. This validation is exactly what I needed because for the first time in years I have hope that I can make peace with this. So, to Pamela Mahoney Tsigdinos I want to say thank-you. In so many ways your story is my story, and I now have hope that I can find peace and serenity in this life, and learn that just being me–and not a Mom–is enough. Thank you!

Thank you, MJ and all of you, for hearing and seeing me. I see and hear you, too.

See also  Clear-Headed Thinking

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If there’s someone you’d like to read Silent Sorority, drop a comment in the section below explaining why by May 15. I’ll draw a name and send a free copy. Meanwhile, if you have read and enjoyed Silent Sorority during the past eight years, please consider visiting the book page on Amazon and let others know what it meant to you. xo

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9 thoughts on “Where Did Eight Years Go, Silent Sorority?”

  1. Cristy says:
    April 18, 2017 at 2:52 pm

    8 years. How? And yet Silent Sorority has a much needed place in our world. Thank you for this memior Pamela. Thanks to everyone who has added their voices, sharing their story of resolution when it doesn’t fall into the “happily ever after” society craves in order to silence infertility survivors. Wishing you many more anniversaries with comments like the one from MJ.

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  2. Mali says:
    April 18, 2017 at 9:56 pm

    Eight years, wow! What a lovely response. I remember that I read a couple of memoirs when I first ended ttc attempts, and then spent some years focusing on ectopics and helping people through that. But I realised I needed more, and about the time I was reaching out to the blogging world, I found your blog and book. I remember feeling so pleased that someone had written this, had reached out, and I wished I’d found you earlier. It is wonderful that Silent Sorority is still playing such an important role, still helping people feel that they aren’t alone, still telling them that their lives are okay, they’re legitimate, and that their grief is heard. Brava, Pamela!

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  3. Different Shores says:
    April 19, 2017 at 8:05 am

    Just left a review on Amazon there. As I always say, your book was a huge deciding factor in my giving up the misery and moving forward. I ordered it June 28, 2011 when it was still quite new and I was looking for something that would tell me it was alright to stop pushing the treatments and just live my life; thank god it was out at that time. It was a massive help to me and I’d recommend it to anyone trying to find resolution after childlessness.

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  4. Mel says:
    April 19, 2017 at 9:13 am

    Incredible that it has been 8 years. The book is still just as important, just as timely, just as thought-provoking. Thank you for putting your story out there — in book form and on the blog.

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  5. loribeth says:
    April 19, 2017 at 3:14 pm

    Eight years, wow, and TEN for your blog. I need to re-read this; it was a great book that reflected my own reality so well, and I know it’s been incredibly helpful to so many others who have followed us down this road less travelled since then. Thank you, Pamela! :)

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  6. BnB says:
    April 20, 2017 at 8:45 am

    Wow! Eight years is a huge milestone! I only discovered your book and blog about three years, but it was (and continues to be) so meaningful to me and was/is and important tool to moving on.

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  7. Klara says:
    April 26, 2017 at 9:03 am

    dear Pamela,
    Happy 8th BlogAnniversary! Thank you for writing your blog and the books. I can’t imagine my life without you. I will be forever thankful – I found you in the darkest years of my infertility. And with your help I survived.
    warm hugs from Europe.
    Klara

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  8. Pamela Tsigdinos says:
    April 26, 2017 at 2:24 pm

    Thank you so very much, Klara, BnB, LoriBeth, Mel, Different Shores, Mali & Cristy!
    Your support and friendship over the years has enriched my life in so many ways. xo

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  9. K says:
    May 12, 2017 at 3:47 pm

    I’ve stumbled across your blog while googling how to move on from infertility. I ordered from Amazon I’m waiting for the book to come in the mail. I’d love to win a second copy to pass on. Looking forward to reading the book!

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