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Permission to Feel Emotions Deeply

Posted on January 19, 2023January 20, 2023 by Pamela Tsigdinos

Permission is a tricky thing. We frequently, readily provide it to others but deny it to ourselves. That’s often because allowing ourselves freely to engage in activities such as sitting with our emotions can seem self-indulgent. But, in reality, it can be self-affirming.

Reader Writes About Permission Denied

It’s always gratifying to hear from new readers, particularly those who have taken the time to delve into my story. As you many of you know (and you’ll see, below), the painful realities that accompany infertility and failed IVF leave a lasting wake and surface many questions. Now, fellow bloggers and blog readers, a request for thoughts from Sharon:

I am a newcomer to this blog, and am so grateful to have found it after reading Silent Sorority. I am a member of the failed IVF club (unexplained infertility) and 23 years after that final attempt at becoming pregnant I still struggle with feelings of grief and anger and feeling like a failure as a woman, which I have mostly kept to myself; reading Silent Sorority released a tidal wave of emotions that I had bottled up.

I realize now that I never gave myself permission to get really ‘pissed off’ and appropriately deal with that ‘shitty aftermath’ that Jennifer A described; very few family and friends knew about my infertility, and some of those well meaning people would say things like ‘you and your husband have a great life, you have so much to be grateful for’. So how dare I complain? Ah yes, a great career as a Registered nurse, but working in a female dominated profession the baby oriented conversations were always happening. Another thing I learned is that even those I shared some of my deepest sad thoughts and feelings with would disappoint me with insensitive actions, comments, pregnancy announcements. I often wonder if I am the only woman who has been stuck in this silent sadness stage? I will be turning 60 years young this April and would really appreciate some feedback from the ladies of this blog.”

Lessons Learned: What Are Yours?

You’ve come to the right place, Sharon. You’re among many who have asked that same question, sometimes in different ways. But permission to feel “pissed off” or sadness or just plain numb — as well as validation of these emotions — is a common theme in our community. Over the years, other readers have reached out or shared. Here are a few posts that address your question (do read the comments).  They will definitely help.

See also  Society in 2010: Definitively Annoying

Guest Post: Never Being Called Mommy – March 2010

Kindness Comes in Many Forms – December 2012

Grief is a Form of Love – April 2013

Prince Harry and I Agree: Bury Grief at Your Peril – August 2017

Childless Not By Choice – A Conversation with Civilla Morgan – February 2019

Meanwhile, I ask others who have wisdom to share to weigh in. Your comments and feedback are most welcome.

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2 thoughts on “Permission to Feel Emotions Deeply”

  1. Mali says:
    January 19, 2023 at 11:20 pm

    This is it in a nutshell, isn’t it? Those who dismiss our grief, our loss, our emotions, because it makes THEM feel uncomfortable, are also telling us that our emotions aren’t important enough, or valid or legitimate enough, to be heard. That’s the wonderful thing about the blogging world – we learn how wrong this is, and we are heard, truly heard, by each other for maybe the first time. Sharon, you are not alone. And you’re allowed to be sad, angry, bitter, or however you feel about this. You’re allowed to be grateful and regretful at the same time. And there’s a whole world full of us out there who can prove this to you.
    Sending love
    Mali (from No Kidding in NZ)

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  2. loribeth says:
    January 22, 2023 at 5:51 pm

    Sharon, I am so glad you found Pamela & our community. :) It will be 22 years this summer that I had my last unsuccessful IUI, and while I was lucky enough to find some online support shortly after that, and while I have had a very good life in the years since then, there are still plenty of times when I get sad, frustrated, and/or (yes!) completely pissed off at the clueless, fortunate fertile. You have every right to feel as you do — but I hope that, now that you’ve found us, you’ll find some comfort hanging out with us here. All the best to you! — Loribeth, The Road Less Travelled

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